That Thing I Need To Write

So many words I've written

behind an altered name.

So many lines and lyrics.

So much has been a game.

Too many paragraphs and words.

I've never really said

the things I really need to say

from both my heart and head.

Oh, they're all true - those words of mine.

I'm not the sort to utter lines

that I don't mean or take to heart, but

words from around the edges

aren't truth or tale or art.

And off, around those edges

Calling, screaming, haunting

are words I've been ignoring

because not doing so is daunting.

Besides, you know, it's easier

to write the safer things.

And never have to worry of

the consequence it brings.

There is a price for honesty.

I'm not sure that I can pay it.

There's something that I need to write

and say, but I can't say it.

So many things I've written,

almost finished, but not quite.

So many words, and finished work

that's never felt quite right.

.

Words swirling quite within my grasp -

if only I could win the fight

to reign them in and find the strength

to write that thing I need to write.

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